29.1.09
Bury Me
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Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was
slowly changing
I would love
to beat the face,
Of any mother f*cker
that's thinkin' they can change me,
White knuckles grip
pushing through for the gold,
If you're wantin' a piece of me
I broke the mother f*ckin' mold,
I'm drowning in your wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding
I struggle in violated space,
Sell out motherf*ckers in the biz
that try to f*ck me,
Hang from their T's
rated P.G. insight,
I ain't sellin' my soul
when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
F*ck you while you try
To f*ck me
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you
ain't f*ckin' changing me
Let me help you tie the rope
around your neck,
Let me help to talk you
the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold
the glock against your head
Let me help to chain
the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank f*ck!
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin' on
a mother f*ckin' tailpipe
Dead man walking
on a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of
a channel bomb's away
(Dedicated to Hokz)
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Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was
slowly changing
I would love
to beat the face,
Of any mother f*cker
that's thinkin' they can change me,
White knuckles grip
pushing through for the gold,
If you're wantin' a piece of me
I broke the mother f*ckin' mold,
I'm drowning in your wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding
I struggle in violated space,
Sell out motherf*ckers in the biz
that try to f*ck me,
Hang from their T's
rated P.G. insight,
I ain't sellin' my soul
when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
F*ck you while you try
To f*ck me
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you
ain't f*ckin' changing me
Let me help you tie the rope
around your neck,
Let me help to talk you
the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold
the glock against your head
Let me help to chain
the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank f*ck!
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin' on
a mother f*ckin' tailpipe
Dead man walking
on a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of
a channel bomb's away
(Dedicated to Hokz)
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Wanita Ibarat Bola
..
Kalau wanita berusia 17 tahunan...
mirip-mirip seperti bola sepakbola,
diperebutin 22 cowok.
Terus kalau wanita berusia 24 tahunan...
mirip-mirip seperti bola baseball,
diperebutin 18 cowok.
Dan untuk wanita berusia 30 tahunan...
mirip-mirip seperti bola basket,
diperebutin 10 cowok.
Misalnya wanita berusia 35 tahunan...
anggap saja mirip-mirip seperti
bola tennis, diperebutin 2 cowok.
Dan yang terahkir, untuk wanita berusia 45 tahunan....
sudah seperti bola golf...yaitu....
DIPUKULIN JAUH-JAUH..!!!
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Minum Obat yg Baik dan Benar
..
Sering teman bertanya kepada saya,
apakah benar kita tidak boleh minum obat dengan susu?
Ada lagi yang bertanya : apakah minum obat harus sesudah makan?
Bolehkah minum obat dengan air teh?
Kalau ada pertanyaan begini barulah saya tersadar,
masih banyak hal yang terjadi di masyarakat
yang perlu diluruskan terkait penggunaan obat.
Dan saya juga baru menyadari kalo saya seorang Farmakolog
yang berkewajiban membantu masyarakat
tentang pemakaian obat secara rasional.
Selama ini, di masyarakat terdapat berbagai
macam image terkait cara minum obat.
Jika kita ingin meluruskan image yang salah
tentang pemakaian obat, mau tak mau kita
harus menilik ilmu farmakokinetika,
yakni ilmu tentang nasib obat di dalam badan.
Obat masuk ke tubuh kita akan mengalami
berbagai peristiwa yakni :
ADME=absorpsi/penyerapan,
distribusi,
metabolisme dan
ekskresi.
Peristiwa yang terkait dengan cara minum obat
adalah absorpsi yakni penyerapan obat dari
tempat pemberiannya menembus membran biologis,
masuk ke sirkulasi darah sistemik.
Proses ini merupakan pintu pertama
yang harus dilewati obat agar
obat memberikan efeknya ke tubuh.
Cara pemberian obat yang berbeda
akan mempengaruhi cepat lambatnya
obat terabsorpsi, dengan kata lain
juga akan mempengaruhi cepat lambatnya
obat berefek.
Begitu pun makanan dan minuman,
sangat mempengaruhi proses absorpsi obat.
Tergantung di mana obat diabsorpsi/tempat
absorpsi obat, maka dengan menganalisis
makanan/minuman yang masuk bersama obat,
maka kita akan mudah memprediksi pengaruh
keduanya kepada cepat lambatnya atau
malah tidak terabsorpsinya obat.
Interaksi obat dengan makanan/minuman
(Food drug interaction)
Sifat fisika kimia obat menentukan
tempat absorpsi obat. Obat biasanya
bersifat asam lemah atau basa lemah.
Obat asam lemah akan diserap di lambung
(jika diberikan secara oral dengan diminum,
bukan di bawah lidah atau di dinding mulut bucal),
sementara yang bersifat basa lemah
akan diserap di usus yang lingkungannya
memang lebih basa dibandingkan lambung.
Kecepatan pengosongan lambung juga
tak kalah penting untuk absorpsi obat
secara oral. Semakin cepat pengosongan lambung,
bagi obat bersifat asam akan merugikan
karena hanya sejumlah kecil obat yang terserap,
namun menguntungkan obat bersifat basa lemah
karena segera mencapai tempat absorpsi di usus,
segera terjadi proses penyerapan.
Selain terkait sifat obat dan tempat absorpsi,
makanan/minuman akan mempengaruhi bentuk obat.
Obat seharusnya berbentuk molekul kecil untuk
bisa terabsorpsi dengan baik.
Maka perlu dilakukan uji disolusi/pelarutan obat
saat dilakukan formulasi obat.
Namun, hal lain yang perlu diwaspadai
adalah adanya interaksi obat dengan
makanan/minuman atau nutrien tertentu,
sehingga terbentuk senyawa kompleks
bermolekul besar yang menghalangi obat diabsorpsi.
Contoh interaksi obat dengan makanan/minuman atau nutrient
1. obat-obat antialergi golongan antihistamin (Benadryl, Claritin, CTM, Zyrtec, Incidal, dll) merupakan obat bersifat asam lemah yang absorpsinya terjadi di lambung. Maka seharusnya diminum saat perut kosong (satu jam sblm makan atau 2 jam sesudah makan) atau cukup diminum dengan air putih saja. Jika diminum dengan susu, adanya pencernaan susu akan menghambat proses absorpsi di lambung, efek obat menjadi lambat.
2. Obat pain killer dan antiinflamasi (anti rematik, anti Gout/asam urat, anti bengkak). Obat golongan ini sebagian besar bersifat asam agak tinggi (ibuprofen=Nurofen, advil, aspirin, aspilet, aspro, asam mefenamat=ponstan, mefinal) walaupun absorpsi terjadi di lambung, namun karena keasaman yang tinggi tsb akan menimbulkan efek samping nyeri lambung, maka seharusnya diminum bersama susu, atau sebentar sesudah makan. Walaupun jelas ada penundaan absorpsi, namun karena mengingat efek sampingnya yang jauh lebih berbahaya, maka lebih baik menunda absorpsi dengan makan/minum susu tsb. Begitu pula dengan obat anti inflamasi golongan non steroid (diclofenac/voltaren, difflam, cataflam) dan steroid (deksametason, metil prednisolon/meptin, medrol, prednisone/deltasone, cortisone asetat/cortef), harus diminum sesudah makan atau bersama susu. Lain lagi dengan parasetamol (panadol, tempra, lylenol), karena bersifat lebih basa lemah dan diabsorpsi di usus, maka lebih baik obat jenis ini diminum sebelum makan, diikuti makanan sehingga akan segera sampai di usus, terjadilah proses absorpsi.
3. Secara umum untuk antibiotik (penisilin=amoksisilin, ampisilin, ciproflokasasin, ofloksasin, eritromisin, azitromisin, metronidasol, cotrimoksasol) seharusnya diminum saat perut kosong. Minum cukup dengan air putih. Karena absorpsi terjadi di lambung. Hal menarik terjadi khusus dengan golongan tetrasiklin (tetrasiklin, oksitetrasiklin, doksisiklin, minosiklin). Bila obat golongan ini diminum dengan susu atau dairy product yang mengandung kalsium (yogurt), atau diminum bersama obat suplemen mengandung zat besi dan kalsium (multivitamin dan mineral), atau obat sakit maag (mengandung kalsium, magnesium, atau aluminium), maka mineral valensi 2 dan 3 ini akan membentuk senyawa komplaeks ermolekul besar dengan golongan tetrasiklin. Obat golongan tetrasiklin sama sekali tidak terabsorpsi sehingga tidak akan muncul efek farmakologi yang diinginkan pasien, kemungkinan besar terjadi kegagalan terapi. Obat jerawat biasanya mengandung golongan tetrasiklin ini. Hal serupa juga berlaku untuk obat antijamur (griseofulvin, ketokonazol, fluconazol). Jangan diminum bersama susu, dairy product, multivitamin dan mineral, obat antasid untuk sakit maag.
4. Obat asma mengandung teofilin atau aminofilin, adanya makanan lemak tinggi atau cafein akan meningkatkan efek samping teofilin (terjadi gangguan di jantung, palpitasi). Jangan minum obat asma ini dengan kopi atau sesudah makan lemak tinggi. Makanan berkadar tinggi karbohidrat seperti nasi akan menurunkan jumlah teofilin yang terabsorpsi. (Aminofilin sesudah masuk tubuh akan membentuk teofilin juga =prodrug).
5. Obat antikolesterol lovastatin, simvastatin, pravastatin, dengan adanya susu atau makanan akan meningkatkan absorpsi obat. Maka lebih baik diminum dengan susu atau sesudah makan (kurang dari 2 jam sesudah makan).
6. Obat cacing (pirantel pamoat) juga lebih baik diminum dengan susu atau sesudah makan, karena akan terjadi peningkatan absorpsi dengan makanan/susu.
7. Obat antihipertensi ACEinhibitor (captopril dan golongannya=capoten, vasotec,accupril) jangan diminum bersama jus buah atau sayuran yang mengandung tinggi kalium/potasium (pisang, jeruk, sayuran berhijau daun), karena tingginya kalium akan meningkatkan efek oat golongan ini sehingga bisa muncul efek samping di jantung.
Jadi, sebaiknya obat diminum dengan susu,
teh, air putih, jus buah, sebelum atau
sesudah makan sangat bervariasi
tergantung golongan obat
(beserta sifat fisika kimia dan
faktor lainnya yang terkait).
Tidak bisa dilakukan generalisasi :
tidak boleh minum obat dengan susu,
minum obat harus sesudah makan,
ini image dalam masyarakat yang
harus diubah demi keberhasilan terapi obat.
Selamat minum obat…..
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28.1.09
bagaimana mengatasi obsesi cinta dan tips2 lainnya!
..
this one works !
kalo suatu ketika kita mendapati
diri kita amat teramat sangat terobsesi sekali
dengan seorang 'bidadari' yg tak sempurna itu
katakan pada dirimu,
untuk apa aku selalu memikirkan dirimu
sedangkan kau belum tentu mau memikirkan diriku
barang sedetik pun..
katakan: jangan mau diperdaya olehnya
ditertawakan krn begitu konyolnya sikapku
dihadapannya
ulangi terus pernyataan ini
hingga menyatu dgn otak bwh sadarmu
percayalah, tidak ada gunanya memikirkan
seseorang sehebat, sekeras itu
hingga susah tidur, susah makan, aktivitas
terganggu
i know the feeling, brother!
i've been there..
the valley of the shadow of the dead..
it is right if you heard someone said:
what doesn't kill you
only makes you stronger !
so now you're stronger !
beat the feeling, before it beats you
down on your knees begging please
with no dignity at all
come on! we are MEN!
bigger, stronger, better !
than any creation in the world..
you have to make her obsessed by you
not the otherwise..
then you shall conquer the world
of romance..
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Try to use a better
piece of your mind
But you’re inside out
And the whole world’s
there to see you
Does it make you
want to think
About the tragic things
in this life
If you want to cry
It’s hard to deny
That it makes me
want to die
For the madness
that’s in this world
If you want to die
Then it’s over now
If you want to
beat the world
It might reach up
and pull you down
If you want to
find the way
The door is locked,
the key is rusted
So break away
from all these chains
that bind you,
cut you at the wrists
Or does it make more
sense to just go
And make the scar
yourself
‘Cause you like to
see it bleeding
And you like
the color red
But you’ve seen
the light
Through the hate
and all the lies
And the madness
that’s in this world
If you want to die
Then it’s over now
Too rusted to find a way…
I gotta find
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piece of your mind
But you’re inside out
And the whole world’s
there to see you
Does it make you
want to think
About the tragic things
in this life
If you want to cry
It’s hard to deny
That it makes me
want to die
For the madness
that’s in this world
If you want to die
Then it’s over now
If you want to
beat the world
It might reach up
and pull you down
If you want to
find the way
The door is locked,
the key is rusted
So break away
from all these chains
that bind you,
cut you at the wrists
Or does it make more
sense to just go
And make the scar
yourself
‘Cause you like to
see it bleeding
And you like
the color red
But you’ve seen
the light
Through the hate
and all the lies
And the madness
that’s in this world
If you want to die
Then it’s over now
Too rusted to find a way…
I gotta find
.
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this is (half) bullshit!
..
*I will be healtier and stronger when I'm old
*I still can have sex when I'm 60 years old
*Everyone in this world will one day follow Messiah!
------> no this is true, one day, it will happened!
*
to be continued..
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27.1.09
Glaukoma
..
penyakit kelainan mata
yg merusak syarat optik.
merupakan sebab nomer 2
kebutaan di indonesia
beda dgn katarak, yg msh
bisa di obati dgn operasi,
glaukoma tidak dapat
direhabilitasi
penderitanya tidak menyadari
penyakit ini sampai terjadi
kerusakan penglihatan
faktor resikonya:
org yg umurnya 45 thn
ada riwayat glaukoma dlm
keluarga
tekanan bola mata
miopi (rabun jauh)
diabetes
hipertensi
penyempitan pembuluh
darah otak
kecelakaan pada mata
penggunaan steroid
jangka panjang
meski tidak ada obatnya
penyakit ini masih
dapat dikendalikan
dgn obat tetes mata,
tablet, operasi mata/laser
yg paling umum adalah
penggunaan obat mata.
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KitRut
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God, You know i've prayed
so many times.. for You
to take this pain away
forever..
i wonder if you bored listening?
But the pain still inside me,
hidden, raging, waiting for
perfect moment to strike me,
bleed me, paralized me !
i'm so scared O, my dear Lord!
i know Your grace, its enuff for
me now.. You said!
i'm still waiting, patiently
for Your awesome miracle shall
cured this awful disease..
i also know, even 'it' still with me
You always plan only good things
for me.. its the best things,
when i dont even have a clue, whats
going on, with this, with my life..
and i TRUST You, Your Every word
cause You Are That You Are!
i only hope that You shall always
provide me a chance to 'escape' it
when it happens, and save my day..
once again..
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Purpose Driven
..
Tulisan ini disadur dari
wawancara singkat dengan
Rick Warren.
RiÇk mengatakan, tujuan
hidup ini adalah suatu
persiapan untuk hidup kekal
Kita tidak diciptakan
untuk binasa, krn Allah
menginginkan kita bersama
dengannya di sorga
Suatu hari nanti jantung ini
akan berhenti, namun itu bukan
lah akhir dari keberadaan saya!
kita mungkin diberi hidup
60-100 tahun, tetapi kita akan
menjalani hidup jutaan tahun
bahkan selama-lamanya di dlm
kekekalan.
Saat ini, kita sedang melakukan
'pemanasan'. Allah menginginkan
kita latihan dulu di dunia fana ini
segala sesuatu yg nantinya akan
kita kerjakan didalam kekekalan.
Kita diciptakan oleh dan untuk Allah
sebelum kita mencapai pengenalan ini,
hidup akan terasa tidak masuk
diakal.
hidup itu adalah rentetan masalah
yg harus kita jalani/lewati.
begitu selesai satu masalah,
akan muncul lagi masalah lain.
karenan¥a ALLah han¥a tertarik
pada karakter kita daripada
kesenangan² kita
Ia ßermaksud memßentuk hidup kita
menjadi Leßih kudus drpd memßuat
hidup kita menjadi Leßih senang!
Kita ßoLeh saja mengaLami kesukaan
(ßaÇa: kesenangan) di dunia ini
namun ßukan itu tujuan hidup kita
(ßaÇa: ßersenang²/mengharapkan
kesenangan dr ALLah)
Ia ingin kita ßertumßuh dLm karakter
¥g men¥erupai Kristus.
IstRi RiÇk WaRRen, Ka¥, mendeRita
kankeR. RiÇk peRnah ßeRpikiR, ßahwa
hidup ini sepeRti ßukit dan Lemßah.
ada masa senang, ada masa susah,
siLih ßeRganti.
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pemikiRan sepeRti itu.
aLih² sepeRti ßukit dan Lemßah,
ia peRÇa¥a, kehidupan itu seumpama
² ReL ¥g ßeRdampingan.
Pada saat ¥g sama, kita mengaLami haL
¥ang ßaik, disaat Lain, haL ßuRuk
teRjadi dLm hidup kita. Seßaik apapun
kehidupan kita, seLaLu ada sesuatu ¥g
ßuRuk ¥g peRLu dipeRßaiki. OLeh kaRena
itu seßuRuk apapun kita anggap hidup kita
seLaLu ada sesuatu ¥ang ßaik untuk
dis¥ukuRi!
kita dapat ƒokus pada tujuan hidup kita
atau..
kita Leßih ƒokus pada masaLah² kita ¿
JIka ƒokusn¥a pada masaLah, maka kita
akan teRjeßak daLam ke EGO sentRisan:
masaLahKU, peRsoaLanKU, kepahitanKU.
ÇaRa ¥g paLing mudah mengaLihkan
kepahitan hidup adaLah ƒokus pada
Tuhan dan Sesama
RiÇk tau, sekaLipun RaTusan doa²
¥ang dipanjaTkan Rißuan oRang
untuk istRin¥a,
Tuhan Tidak juga meRingankan
pendeRiann¥a aTaupun men¥emßuhkann¥a.
kehidupan Ka¥ suLiT, namun iTu
Leßih mendekaTkann¥a pada Tuhan
maupun sesaman¥a.
ßeLajaRLah menghadapi kedua²n¥a
hidup ¥g ßaik maupun ¥g ßuRuk
RiÇk dißeRkaTi dgn penjuaLan
ßukun¥a ¥g menjadikann¥a ka¥a
sekeTika.
Kemash¥uRan iTu Tak TeRpikiRan
maupun peRnah diaLami seßeLumn¥a
RiÇk ßeRpikiR Tuhan Tidak akan
memßeRkaTi kiTa dengan uang
maupun kemas¥uRan unTuk kepuasan
diRi sendiRi, aTau unTuk semaTa²
hidup senang.
RiÇk ßeRTan¥a, apa ¥g Tuhan
kehendaki daRi uang, kemas¥uRan
dan pengaRuhn¥a iTu.
RiÇk mendapaTi diRin¥a
Tidak mengußah ga¥a hidupn¥a
sekeÇiL apapun, Tidak ada
pemßeLanjaan² ßesaR.
Ia juga muLai Tidak meneRima
gaji daRi geRejan¥a
ia memßenTuk ¥a¥asan PeaÇe PLan
unTuk
*menumßuhkan geReja²
*mempeRLengkapi pemimpin²
*menoLong oRg miskin,
*meRawaT oRg sakiT,
*mendidik geneRasi muda.
ia mengemßaLikan seLuRuh gaji
¥g diTeRiman¥a daRi geReja
dLm kuRun ²4 Tahun sejak
ia memuLain¥a.
Ia meLakukan iTu agaR dapaT
meLa¥ani Tuhan Tanpa pamRih!
maka kiTapun paTuT ßeRTan¥a
apakah hidup kiTa han¥a unTuk
memiLiki haRTa ßenda aTau
popuLaRiTas ¿
apakah hidup ini digeRakkan
oLeh Tekanan², Rasa ßeRsaLah,
kepahiTan, maTeRiaLisme,
aTaukah hidup kiTa akan
digeRakkan oLeh Tujuan² ALLah ¿
KeTika kiTa ßangun pagi,
dudukLah disamping TempaT TiduR
dan ßeRdoa, Tuhan, aku ingin
mengenaLMu dan mengasihiMu
Leßih dekaT dan Leßih daLam Lagi..
KaRena kiTa Tau, kiTa Tidak di
TempaTkan Tuhan didunia ini
han¥a unTuk semaTa meLakukan
suaTu daƒTaR pekeRjaan dgn
RuTiniTas ¥g memßosankan..
Ia TeRTaRik pada diRi kiTa
dan apa ¥g kiTa Lakukan,
kaRena kiTa dinamakan
Manusia ;
ßukan oRang ¥g ßeRkeRja!
HAPPY MOMENTS, PRAISE GOD
DIFFICULT MOMENTS, SEEK GOD
QUIET MOMENTS, WORSHIP GOD
PAINFUL MOMENTS, TRUST GOD
EVERY MOMENTS, THANK GOD
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23.1.09
Auban ni anak !!!
..
one day you showed up
telling that you have
good news and
a bit of bad news
you said finally you
have girlfriend..
your first girlfriend
well..congrats buddy!
problem is, you have this ten
years differences with her
open up your eyes dude !
when you're gonna learn?
you better choose pain
having this younger girlfriend
than being happy living jomblo
i know the feeling..bro..
this is your first jadian..
you dunno what its like..
you want it to be perfect
its like your dream come true
then you already prepared for
valentines day.. how romantic..
cuih..cuiih..
your key word is happy, coy!
no matter you still jomblo or
have monkey on your back
you must enjoy aja..
dont need to hear
those cynical people
saying why you still
not getting married?
or you must think its real
pathetic to be single?
now you curhat and
say all the thing you hate
why? because you have
this sekia galfriend..
come on? its ridiculous..
you know the consequences
chosing someone
far younger than you
either the wrong is
from you or you have
choosen bad option.
you still asking me
how to help you..
i dunno why you like
starbuck so much
its a boros habit,
its just coffee anyway..
yesterday,
you nongkrong at ropang
why i said, you downgrading?
at waroeng kopi?
it is saving that brings
you to the wedding
if you ask me..
80% saving,
20 percent using.. no..no..no..
make it 90% saving,
10 percent expending..
if you can,
5 percent is the best..
but i doubt you even
try to do this..
then i dunno how
you're gonna be able to
arrange married
+your annoying galfriend
+your cicilan rumah..
i reaaaaallllyy doubt it !
your mental attitute
must be changed !
i heard you've
been rich dulu..
but now is different..
you also got
problem with gengsi..
haiyah..
all i can say..
jalanin dululah
masuk kuping kiri,
keluar kanan
ajak ngomong fair-fairan
ngomong pait2nya..
terima lu apa adanya sih ok
tapi bukan sama kebiasaan
buruk merokok luh..
lu bilang dia jg byk
sifat buruknya
(ya lu adu banyak aja
sama dia..)
ya uda segitu dulu
gw tunggu
undangan merahnya !
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Long Hard Road Out Of Hell
..
Part One (My Love)
I want to fly into your sun
Need faith to make me numb
Live like a teenage christ
Im a saint,
got a date with suicide
Oh Mary, Mary
To be this young is
oh so scary
Mary, Mary
To be this young im
oh so scared
I wanna live, I wanna love
But its a long hard road,
out of hell
I wanna live, I wanna love
But its a long hard road,
out of hell
You never said forever,
could ever hurt like this
You never said forever,
could ever hurt like this
Spin my way out of hell,
theres nothing left
this soul to sell
Live fast and die fast too
How many times
to do this for you?
I wanna live,
I wanna love
But its a long hard road,
out of hell
You never said forever,
could ever hurt like this
I wanna live,
I wanna love
But its a long hard road,
out of hell
Long hard road,
out of hell
Sell my soul for anything,
anything but you
Sell my soul for anything,
anything but you
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i'm having this harsh episodes in my life
it separated into 2 parts
actually i dont want to reveal it to you
i let you guess..
its about love, its about life..
you see, my love/life
kinda similar to this poem above..
such dark black sad sorrow moody ambience
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Part two (my life)
Land of anger
I didnt ask to be born
Sadness, sorrow
Everything so alone
Laboratory sickness
Infects humanity
No hope for cure
Die by technology
A world full of shit coming down
Tribal voilence everywhere
Life in the age of terrorism
We spit in your other face
War of races
World without intelligence
A place consumed by time
End of it all
Were born with pain
No more were dead
Embryonic cells
Corrision inside -- we feel
Condemned future -- we see
Emptiness calls -- we hear
Final premonition -- the truth
Land of anger
I didnt ask to be born
Sadness, sorrow
Everything so alone
Laboratory sickness
Infects humanity
No hope for cure
Die by technology
Were born with pain
Suffer remains
Were born with pain
Suffer remains
Were dead
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21.1.09
csi (crime scene investigation)
gw suka banget serial tv csi
terutama yg csi las vegas
the original, first series..
i learn so much about crime
homicide, autopsy
how to solve crime,
how the crime first time conducted,
how to make a tv crime story,
(obsesi sutradara ne)
how to outsmart police,
when you decided to do
sumthing not nice..
so guys before you get caught
by any misdemeanor or felony
you did..
...watch CSI !!!
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The Trinity, My Own Comprehension
..
Deus (also called the father, the first)
is definitely one,
since human fall short, committing sin
new mission must be fullfiled,
in order to accomplish salvation.
Deus needs to become one with His
creation, to reveal Himself, to
teach human about the unknown Deus
so He send his only Son, The Word,
(which is also Himself/Deus representing
a son / son of human / lamb of Deus
to redempt human sin, so He is known as
the second)
After the son accomplish The mission,
by death on the cross, He rise and
must return to Deus (His father)
and promise us will come again
the 2nd time.
So before He went to heaven, he promised
his disciples, Holy spirit (the third, also
Deus Himself)
shall accompanied them in this world,
while spreading the good news.
therefore, this is not mathematical
1+1+1 are not three but still one, cappish?
three of them = Deus
you said how this can be?
i said it is kinda
difficult to understand
lemme give you example..
can you explain to an ants
how computer works?
its the same like explaining
Trinity to human's small limited
comprehension..
Bad news.. people,
you cant save yourselves by
only doing goodworks !
any religion ritual also can't
help you either..
you must repent, give yourselves
to the son, who gave his life
for our life sake.
it is only possible
by the grace of Deus,
and it's free,
you just have to
believe His son..
only by the spill of holy,
sinless blood, enough
to save all the world..
how hard can it be?
accept him now before
its too late
who is the son anyway?
I bet already you know his name..
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Daughter
..
ak ga tau ibuku dulu waktu mengandung
mengharapkan pangeran atau tuan putri
but she delivers one unique prince..
...
Alone...listless...
breakfast table in an
otherwise empty room
Young girl...violins...
center of her own attention
The mother reads aloud
child tries to understand it
Tries to make her proud
The shades go down
it's in her head
Painted room...
can't deny there's
something wrong...
Don't call me daughter
not fit to
The picture kept
will remind me
Don't call me daughter
not fit to
The picture kept
will remind me
Don't call me...
She holds the hand
that holds her down
She will...rise above
The shades go down
The shades go, go, go...
.
.
breakfast table in an
otherwise empty room
Young girl...violins...
center of her own attention
The mother reads aloud
child tries to understand it
Tries to make her proud
The shades go down
it's in her head
Painted room...
can't deny there's
something wrong...
Don't call me daughter
not fit to
The picture kept
will remind me
Don't call me daughter
not fit to
The picture kept
will remind me
Don't call me...
She holds the hand
that holds her down
She will...rise above
The shades go down
The shades go, go, go...
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20.1.09
Cidade de Deus
..
A miracle needs no explanation
to those who believe in Deus;
To those who don't, no explanation
is enough..
to those who believe in Deus;
To those who don't, no explanation
is enough..
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Discovering Deus
..
Deus could have revealed
all the truth to all people
at the very beginning of time,
but He chose to reveal Himself
gradually.
Perhaps that's because we
value things more when we
have to search and wait
for them.
Deus is not playing a cruel game
of hide and seek.
He is allowing us to enjoy the
process of discovering who He is
and what He is up to in the
universe
So don't be discourage over
what you don't know about Deus.
Be Excited about unwrapping all
there is yet to discover !
(Deus = God, the trinity)
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19.1.09
My Wife
After mentioning
all the past girl of my dreams
I forgot to mention my Wife..
Even with her, my romance were not
so "Heboh"
kalo die tau pasti ngamuk tu bini gw.. :-)
Sometime She looks like Arzetti,
the other time looks like Karenina,
The later time looks like Tyas Mirasih,
After time looks like Sarah Palin
anehnya..
the Next time She looks like Inool D.
(yg ini kalo pas dimekap di salon pas hari merit)
satu yang pasti ga kayak Mariana Renata..
Miel, no offense ya..
you know how much
i like Mariana..
coz when You Like Ari Wibowo
or mas Nunu Reeves
That's fine by me :-)
She's been a good wife-- great if i'm not
exaggerating !
Honest, Godly, Resposible,
Punctual, Discipline ..
***Sadistic, Ignorant, Finicky..
try to understand that i love you
but not in 'romantic obssessive' ways
i think its healtier, better than
i ever loved anyone my whole life
before..
You're worth waiting, my LOVE..
Baby Huey meets Mama Huey
And I know, I will never dissapointed
with my choice..
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Antre.. Tidur..
..
Hari ini 19-01-09
gw ke kantor pajak
ambil kartu NPWP
no. antrian menunjukkan
654 .. buset, ni brp lama
lagi mesti gw tunggu?
oh, ternyata mulai dipanggil
dr 641 ... terus kutunggu
hingga no. 652, then stuck
for almost 1 hour..
sh*t, what happened..
gilole, ne tukang pajak!
selidik pny selidik
ternyata, mereka kewalahan
ngurusin kartu2 npwp satu
per satu..
udah gitu, dr sistim antre
menjadi sistim siapa cepat
dia dpt alias saling serobot
buset .. !
yg lebih memuakkan lagi
ialah..
udah geto lama kok kartu
npwp gw lom jadi yah?
ga dikasi tau lagi kpn ambil
lagi..
gw sempet nanya sama
satu engko2..
dia aja udh dpt tanda terima
tanggal 30-12-08 aja
2 kali dtg msh jg lom jadi kartunya
apalagi gw ya???
kecian deh looo! coyyy!
tar de abis sincia gw dtg lagi..
sialan, udh nunggu gitu lama
ternyata org2 pada liat daftar
nama yg ada di bagian reception
untuk memastikan namanya
ada disana, krn kartunya pasti
udah jadi..
..and my name wasn't there
dan nama gw gada tuh disana..
people like sleeping there on
the couch..
gimane pade mo denger udh antrian
nomer berapa kalo asyik aja
molor..
jangan jangan ni org bukan urusin
pajak, mungkin juga sales di ktr
yg udah gada gawe, kecapean
mampir ke kantor pajak..
duduk, trus tidur deh..
indonesia.. indonesia..
kapan loe mo maju ye???
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My friend Ige
..
My Friend from Atlantic,
Ige or Indra Gani used to say..
A long time ago..
Katanya:
Kalo apa-apa itu jangan dipikirin dulu
nantinya seperti apa, jalanin aja dulu..
Nanti kalo dipikirin dulu,
kitanya jadi takut ngelakuinnya..
i guess, he's right !
tapi sayangnya, nama baiknya tercemar
karena kasus korupsi biaya perawatan
bus pariwisata..
anyway, it's good quotes from someone
i still remember it until now !
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16.1.09
Want you bad !
.
.
If you could only
read my mind
You would know
that things between us
Ain't right
I know your arms
are open wide
But you're a little on
the straight side
I can't lie
Your one vice
It's you're too nice
Come around
now can you see
I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad
Complete me
Mistreat me
want you to be
bad bad bad bad bad
If you could only
read my mind
You would know that
I've been waiting
So long
For someone
almost just like you
But with attitude,
I'm waiting
so come on
Get out of clothestime
Grow out those highlights
Come around
now can't you see
I want you
In a vinyl suit
I want you bad
Complicated
X-rated
I want you
bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad
Don't get me wrong
I know you're
only being good
But that's what's wrong
I guess
I just misunderstood
Go!
I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad
Complicated
X-rated
I want you bad
I mean it
I need it
I want you
bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad,
really really bad
------------------------------------
again, this is dedicated to you
my shierley..
i want you, REALY, REALY BAD.. !
.
.
.
If you could only
read my mind
You would know
that things between us
Ain't right
I know your arms
are open wide
But you're a little on
the straight side
I can't lie
Your one vice
It's you're too nice
Come around
now can you see
I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad
Complete me
Mistreat me
want you to be
bad bad bad bad bad
If you could only
read my mind
You would know that
I've been waiting
So long
For someone
almost just like you
But with attitude,
I'm waiting
so come on
Get out of clothestime
Grow out those highlights
Come around
now can't you see
I want you
In a vinyl suit
I want you bad
Complicated
X-rated
I want you
bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad
Don't get me wrong
I know you're
only being good
But that's what's wrong
I guess
I just misunderstood
Go!
I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad
Complicated
X-rated
I want you bad
I mean it
I need it
I want you
bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad,
really really bad
------------------------------------
again, this is dedicated to you
my shierley..
i want you, REALY, REALY BAD.. !
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Watch the world die..
.
.
.
.
.
I am still livin'
with your ghost
Lonely and dreamin'
of the west coast
I don't wanna be
your down time
I don't wanna be your
stupid game
With my big black boots
and an old suitcase
I do believe
I'll find myself
a new place
I don't wanna
be the bad guy
I don't wanna do your
sleepwalk dance anymore
I just wanna
see some palm trees
Go and try and
shake away this disease
I am still dreamin'
of your face
Hungry and hollow
for all the things
you took away
I don't wanna be
your good time
I don't wanna be
your fall-back
crutch anymore
I'll walk right out
into a brand new day
Insane and risin'
in my own weird way
I just wanna feel
some sunshine
I just wanna find
some place to be alone
We can live
beside the ocean,
leave the fire behind
Swim out past
the breakers,
watch the world die..
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unlike shierley,
i HATE you !
i never have
any relationship like this !
even, ketika gw gagal,
tak pernah setragis ini..
no one rejects me..
who are you.. to reject me?
the pretties, always adored me..
so, again, who are you to reject me?
thing turns back
upside down..
you like when i dont like..
then shit, i like when
you dont like
what the f**** ?!
hope you find your peace
but not with me..
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Phobia
..
The English suffixes -phobia, -phobic, -phobe (of Greek origin: φόβος/φοβία ) occur in technical usage in psychiatry to construct words that describe irrational, disabling fear as a mental disorder (e.g., agoraphobia), in chemistry to describe chemical aversions (e.g., hydrophobic), in biology to describe organisms that dislike certain conditions (e.g., acidophobia), and in medicine to describe hypersensitivity to a stimulus, usually sensory (e.g., photophobia). In common usage they also form words that describe dislike or hatred of a particular thing or subject. The suffix is antonymic to -phil-.
Many people apply the suffix -phobia inappropriately to mild or irrational fears with no serious substance; however, earlier senses relate to psychiatry which studies serious phobias which disable a person's life. For more information on the psychiatric side of this, including how psychiatry groups phobias as agoraphobia, social phobia, or simple phobia, see phobia.
The following lists include words ending in -phobia, and include fears that have acquired names. In many cases people have coined these words as neologisms, and only a few of them occur in the medical literature. In many cases, the naming of phobias has become a word game, of notable example being a 1998 humorous article published by BBC News.1
Note too that no things, substances, or even concepts exist which someone, somewhere may not fear, sometimes irrationally so. A list of all possible phobias would run into many thousands.
Most of these terms tack the suffix -phobia onto a Greek word for the object of the fear (some use a combination of a Latin root with the Greek suffix, which many classicists consider linguistically impure).
In some cases (particularly the less medically-oriented usages), a word ending in -phobia may have an antonym with the suffix -phil-, e.g., Germanophobe / Germanophile.
See also the category:Phobias.
Phobia lists
A large number of-phobia lists circulate on the Internet, with words collected from indiscriminate sources, often copying each other. Also, a number of psychiatric websites exist that at the first glance cover a huge number of phobias, but in fact use a standard text to fit any phobia and reuse it for all unusual phobias by merely changing the name. Sometimes it leads to bizarre results, such as suggestions to cure "prostitute phobia".2 Such practice is known as content spamming and is used to attract search engines.
Psychological conditions
In many cases specialists prefer to avoid the suffix -phobia and use more descriptive terms, see, e.g., personality disorders, anxiety disorders, avoidant personality disorder, love-shyness.
- Ablutophobia — fear of bathing, washing, or cleaning.
- Acrophobia, Altophobia — fear of heights.
- Agoraphobia, without Panic Disorder — fear of places or events where escape is impossible or when help is unavailable.
- Agraphobia — fear of sexual abuse.
- Algophobia — fear of pain.
- Anglophobia — fear of the English or English culture.
- Anthropophobia — fear of people or being in a company, a form of social phobia.
- Anthrophobia — fear of flowers.
- Aquaphobia, Hydrophobia — fear of water.
- Astraphobia, Astrapophobia, Brontophobia, Keraunophobia — fear of thunder, lightning and storms; especially common in young children.
- Autophobia — fear of being alone.
- Aviophobia, Aviatophobia — fear of flying.
- Bacillophobia, Bacteriophobia, Microbiophobia — fear of microbes and bacteria.
- Blood-injection-injury type phobia — a DSM-IV subtype of specific phobias
- Cibophobia, Sitophobia — aversion to food, synonymous to Anorexia nervosa.
- Claustrophobia — fear of confined spaces.
- Coulrophobia — fear of clowns (not restricted to evil clowns).
- Decidophobia — fear of making decisions.
- Dental phobia, Dentophobia, Odontophobia — fear of dentists and dental procedures.
- Dysmorphophobia, or body dysmorphic disorder — a phobic obsession with a real or imaginary body defect.
- Emetophobia — fear of vomiting.
- Ergasiophobia, Ergophobia — fear of work or functioning, or a surgeon's fear of operating.
- Ergophobia — fear of work or functioning.
- Erotophobia — fear of sexual love or sexual questions.
- Erythrophobia — pathological blushing.
- Gephyrophobia — fear of bridges.
- Genophobia, Coitophobia — fear of sexual intercourse.
- Glossophobia — fear of speaking in public or of trying to speak.
- Gymnophobia — fear of nudity.
- Gynophobia — fear of women.
- Haptephobia — fear of being touched.
- Heliophobia — fear of sunlight.
- Hemophobia, Haemophobia — fear of blood.
- Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia — fear of the number 666.
- Hoplophobia — fear of weapons, specifically firearms (Generally a political term but the clinical phobia is also documented).
- Ligyrophobia — fear of loud noises.
- Lipophobia — fear/avoidance of fats in food.
- Mysophobia — fear of germs, contamination or dirt.
- Necrophobia — fear of death, the dead.
- Neophobia, Cainophobia, Cainotophobia, Cenophobia, Centophobia, Kainolophobia, Kainophobia — fear of newness, novelty.
- Nomophobia — fear of being out of mobile phone contact.
- Nosophobia — fear of contracting a disease.
- Nyctophobia, Achluophobia, Lygophobia, Scotophobia — fear of darkness.
- Osmophobia, Olfactophobia — fear of smells.
- Paraskavedekatriaphobia, Paraskevidekatriaphobia, Friggatriskaidekaphobia — fear of Friday the 13th.
- Panphobia — fear of everything or constantly afraid without knowing what is causing it.
- Phagophobia — fear of swallowing.
- Phonophobia — fear of loud sounds.
- Pyrophobia — fear of fire.
- Radiophobia — fear of radioactivity or X-rays.
- Sociophobia — fear of people or social situations
- Scopophobia — fear of being looked at or stared at.
- Somniphobia — fear of sleep.
- Spectrophobia — fear of mirrors and one's own reflections.
- Taphophobia — fear of the grave, or fear of being placed in a grave while still alive.
- Technophobia — fear of technology (see also Luddite).
- Tetraphobia — fear of the number 4.
- Tokophobia — fear of childbirth.
- Tomophobia — fear or anxiety of surgeries/surgical operations.
- Traumatophobia — a synonym for injury phobia, a fear of having an injury
- Trichophobia — fear caused of loose hairs on clothing or elsewhere.
- Triskaidekaphobia, Terdekaphobia — fear of the number 13.
- Trypanophobia, Aichmophobia, Belonephobia, Enetophobia — fear of needles or injections.
- Xenophobia — fear of strangers, foreigners, or aliens.
Zoophobias
- Ailurophobia — fear/dislike of cats
- Apiphobia, Melissophobia — fear/dislike of bees
- Arachnophobia — fear/dislike of spiders
- Chiroptophobia — fear/dislike of bats
- Cynophobia — fear/dislike of dogs
- Entomophobia — fear/dislike of insects
- Equinophobia, Hippophobia — fear/dislike of horses
- Ichthyophobia — fear/dislike of fish
- Musophobia — fear/dislike of mice and/or rats
- Ophidiophobia — fear/dislike of snakes
- Ornithophobia — fear/dislike of birds
- Ranidaphobia — fear/dislike of frogs
- Zoophobia — a generic term for animal phobias
Non-psychological conditions
The following medical conditions have nothing to do with irrational fears. However, each usually has a psychological disorder of the same name which is an irrational fear. The behavior of an individual with the medical condition can be similar to the behavior of an individual with the psychological disorder of the same name (e.g., for both usages of Photophobia the person avoids light). The difference in usage is that for the medical term there is an underlying physiological condition that results in the behavior. For example, with medical Photophobia the hypersensitivity to light is sufficient such that at some light levels the person experiences pain which they avoid by seeking darkness. Removing the physiological cause of the hypersensitivity to light results in the person no longer avoiding light. With psychological Photophobia the person fears the light even though there is no current physiological pain caused by light.
- Hydrophobia — fear of water (a symptom of rabies).
- Photophobia — hypersensitivity to light causing aversion to light (a symptom of Meningitis and a common condition of migrane headaches).
- Phonophobia — hypersensitivity to sound causing aversion to sounds. Common during an alcohol hangover or migrane.
- Osmophobia — hypersensitivity to smells causing aversion to odors. Common during pregnancy.
Biology, chemistry
Biologists use a number of -phobia/-phobic terms to describe predispositions by plants and animals against certain conditions. For antonyms, see here.
- Acidophobia/Acidophobic — preference for non-acidic conditions.
- Heliophobia/Heliophobic — aversion to sunlight.
- Hydrophobia/Hydrophobic — a property of being repelled by water.
- Kosmikophobia — fear of cosmic phenomena, such as black holes or nebulae
- Lipophobicity — a property of fat rejection
- Ombrophobia — fear of rain
- Photophobia/Photophobic — a negative phototaxis or phototropism response.
- Superhydrophobe — the property given to materials that are extremely difficult to get wet.
- Thermophobia/Thermophobic — aversion to heat.
- Xerophobia/Xerophobic — aversion to dryness.
Prejudices and discrimination
One can readily use the suffix -phobia to coin a term that denotes a particular anti-ethnic or anti-demographic sentiment, such as Europhobia, Francophobia, Hispanophobia, and Indophobia. Often a synonym with the prefix "anti-" already exists (e.g., Polonophobia vs. anti-Polonism). See "List of anti-ethnic terms" for more examples. Anti-religious sentiments are expressed in terms such as Christianophobia and Islamophobia.
Other prejudices include
- Biphobia — dislike of bisexuals
- Chemophobia — prejudice against artificial substances in favour of 'natural' substances.
- Ephebiphobia — fear/dislike of youth.
- Gerontophobia, Gerascophobia — fear of growing old or a hatred of the elderly.
- Heterophobia — fear/dislike of heterosexuals.
- Homophobia — aversion to homosexuality or fear of homosexuals. (This word has become a common political term, and many people interpret it as a slur.)
- Hoplophobia — aversion to firearms or firearms owners. This word has also gained a certain political notoriety as a dysphemism for "gun control advocate"
- Lesbophobia — fear/dislike of lesbian women
- Lusophobia — fear/dislike of Portuguese people
- Pedophobia, Pediophobia — fear/dislike of children
- Psychophobia — prejudice and discrimination against mentally ill
- Serbophobia — fear/dislike of Serbs or
- Sinophobia — fear or dislike for
- Transphobia — fear or dislike of transgender or transsexual people.
- Xenophobia — fear or dislike of foreigners
Jocular and fictional phobias
- Aibohphobia — a joke term for the fear of palindromes, which is a palindrome itself. The term is a piece of computer humor entered into the 1981 The Devil's DP Dictionary3
- Anachrophobia — fear of temporal displacement, from a Doctor Who novel by Jonathan Morris.
- Anoraknophobia — fear of spiders wearing anoraks: it is a portmanteau of "anorak" and "arachnophobia. Used in the Wallace and Gromit comic book Anoraknophobia. Also the title of an album by Marillion.
- Arachibutyrophobia — fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth. The word is used by Peter O'Donnell in his 1985 Modesty Blaise adventure novel Dead Man's Handle.4 It had circulated, unattributed, in the Internet for some time until it landed at the CTRN Phobia Clinic website: "Working one-on-one with one of our team, with guaranteed lifetime elimination of Sticky Peanut Butter Phobia. From $1497 and up."
- Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia — fear of long words. Hippopoto- "big" due to its allusion to the Greek-derived word hippopotamus (though this is derived as hippo- "horse" compounded with potam-os "river", so originally meaning "river horse"; according to the Oxford English, "hippopotamine" has been construed as large since 1847, so this coinage is reasonable); -monstr- is from Latin words meaning "monstrous", -o- is a noun-compounding vowel; -sesquipedali- comes from "sesquipedalian" meaning a long word (literally "a foot and a half long" in Latin), -o- is a noun-compounding vowel, and -phobia means "fear". Note: This was mentioned on the first episode of Brainiac Series Five as one of Tickle's Teasers.
- Venustraphobia — fear of beautiful women, according to a 1998 humorous article published by BBC News.1 The word is a portmanteau of "Venus trap" and "phobia". Venustraphobia is the title of a 2006 album by Casbah Club.
Miscellaneous
- Chromophobia — "hatred/fear of colors", a film
- Choreophobia — hatred of dance, a book by Anthony Shay about Iranian dance and its prohibition after the Iranian Revolution
- Entomophobia — a genus of orchids. The word means "fear of insects"
- Robophobia — a novel by Richard Evans
so, which phobia are you ... ?
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